Manifestations

Broad generalizations aside one can say I'm easy to please. Not much to it really. I try to treat people well. And to be honest I expect the same in return. Maybe that's my problem is the expectation. I do things because I want to, not for some need to or because it's expected. I just do.

I have come to show my feelings more this year. A renewed passion if you will. Yes there are things that I have always been passionate about but this year has been very different for me.

I am letting go. All of these walls that I have built up over the years I am breaking down. I am opening myself up to love, happiness, hatred, joy and sadness.

I have always carried sadness with me. My fears, insecurities and doubts. Many bouts with suicidal thoughts. Slowly but surely fighting against them.

I am learning that these feelings are natural and not just happening to me. We as people all have these feelings and are prone to dwell on one more than others. I think we also tend to shut down more.

One thing I've learned above all is to fight more. Not to give in. No need for quitting, facing my fears has been tough but also necessary to becoming a better person. Not in the general I would like world peace way but just having peace.

This is my path to enlightenment. My thoughts manifesting themselves into action. Finding all of the beauty within the chaos in myself, everyone around me and the world.